On our 19th Month Anniversary, Eric and I had the worst fight ever. We had a row even before dinner (we were on our way to SS2 Murni, the place that we went to on our first date) and he made me cry in the car. During dinner, I was quiet for a while but I managed to smile at him and say, "Happy 19th Month Anniversary, baby..." I could tell that he felt really bad... cuz he looked at me and apologized softly.
So after dinner, I went to his house to do some minor adjustments on my ads for the Kancil Awards. Then we got into a huge fight over a minor issue and we started shouting at each other. He told me that he couldn't stand me and that I was the one who caused him to be so depressed and temperamental. Then he told me to find another boyfriend.
Right after he said that, I was stunned for a while. My feelings were hurt and I was so heartbroken. However, the feeling of guilt was overwhelming cuz I know that I did a lotta things that broke his heart too so I burst into tears and sobbed for a long time... about half an hour, I think. I cried till my eyes were swollen. And as for Eric, he was sitting on his bed, staring into spaces and after I've calmed down a little, he began to sob. Seeing him cry always make me wanna hug him, so I went over to hug him. Then I started to pray to the Lord, asking for forgiveness and for guidance. I rededicated our relationship to the Lord right there on his bed. Then Eric hugged me and I told him to pray with me. After we prayed together, we hugged for a long time and we both knew that deep down, we do love each other deeply. Despite all the fights, I know that we belong together and we care about each other a lot...
So after dinner, I went to his house to do some minor adjustments on my ads for the Kancil Awards. Then we got into a huge fight over a minor issue and we started shouting at each other. He told me that he couldn't stand me and that I was the one who caused him to be so depressed and temperamental. Then he told me to find another boyfriend.
Right after he said that, I was stunned for a while. My feelings were hurt and I was so heartbroken. However, the feeling of guilt was overwhelming cuz I know that I did a lotta things that broke his heart too so I burst into tears and sobbed for a long time... about half an hour, I think. I cried till my eyes were swollen. And as for Eric, he was sitting on his bed, staring into spaces and after I've calmed down a little, he began to sob. Seeing him cry always make me wanna hug him, so I went over to hug him. Then I started to pray to the Lord, asking for forgiveness and for guidance. I rededicated our relationship to the Lord right there on his bed. Then Eric hugged me and I told him to pray with me. After we prayed together, we hugged for a long time and we both knew that deep down, we do love each other deeply. Despite all the fights, I know that we belong together and we care about each other a lot...
Words spoken cannot be taken back,
Hearts broken cannot be mended back,
I wish to one day turn back time,
And turn sleepless nights into sunshine...
Love cannot be measured,
Mistakes cannot be corrected,
But my love for you will never die,
No matter how long time passes by...
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